Wow. The last couple weeks have been challenging. Once we finally received word on our LONG awaited home study approval, it was to hear that they weren't sure they could approve it. The person in charge of provincial home study approval wanted us to answer a number of questions regarding the adoption dissolution our family went through 2 years ago. Fifteen questions to be precise, with much detail. We also learned that we would have to sign up with an agency and pay a fair bit for it. We have friends in the States who adopted without an agency, saving them dollars but adding a lot of work. We decided to try this too but it turns out it's not an option in Canada. All of this is definitely slowing down the whole process for us. And there is no guarantee we'll be approved, even after all is done.
Well, we were so discouraged, maybe devastated. We considered giving up. We struggled with prayer and understanding the call we really thought we'd heard. It just didn't seem like it would work. Maybe it was a bad idea to begin with. We kept praying, "Let your kingdom come, let your will be done", but we didn't understand.
During those days, we heard positive encouraging whispers from many directions but they were largely drowned out by the shouting of uncertainties and fears. After a couple days, it dawned on both of us that God whispers. We pondered this for a while and decided we will move ahead towards that which we felt called. We will listen to the whispers, past and present. We will believe and not give up. We will keep on moving in the adoption direction until we get there or can no longer move. We will trust God to do what He wants to do.
So, we've signed up with an agency. We spent the Family day weekend typing out long answers to heart wrenching questions and, once again, we will wait.
We appreciate your prayers and encouragement on the journey.
